Moonee Ponds Healers Market - June

Today was the first time I went to the Moonee Ponds Healers Market. Its held in the community hall, down near the library. Its quite a small hall, so it was a bit crowded but all in all quite good. There were the usual tacky jewelery stalls that you get with these things, but there were also a couple of good crystal stalls. A few tarot readers, as well as a few Reiki healers. What drew my eye immediately was the Turtle Woman stall.

A wander around the stalls drew me to one of the crystal stalls where I found a piece of Unakite which I bought later and is now sitting in my bra. I signed up to have a healing with the Turtle Woman and while I waited got a quick Reiki healing which was centering I guess, but I didn't really feel it work.

The Turtle Woman stall was the best one for me. I went and immediately felt good. She did a smudge cleansing using Sage (burnt the sage in a dish and using a feather wafted it over me to cleanse me) and then we prayed for guidance from my ancestors and hers to give me what I needed in todays session.

We pulled some cards from her 3 different decks. They weren't Tarot decks, more healers decks.

Past - Protection/Obsidion

• Don't want to get rid of this, need to bring it into the future
• Have been trying to protect myself from myself

Present - Sexuality

• Needing to learn my sexuality as a woman, having it come from me, not from outside sources

Future - Squirrel

• Need to centre
• Need to take care of myself

We then asked for more clarity and one of the cards pulled out was the Storm card. When I explained to her what the significance of that card was, with Kim, she thanked me as this was the first time she was back doing healings after losing her sister in law around Mothers Day.

She asked her guides for ways to bring the protection into the future, and got images of me shrouded in mist, being unable to see through it all, which is my depression. She then said she was getting a prayer over and over in her head, the Hail Mary, which apparently she doesn't even know, and suggested that this would be a good thing for me to use.

There was no way she could have known that the last time I said that prayer was when we were sitting around Kim's body, just after she died and said the Rosary. It was like Kim coming back and saying 'You protected me, I'm here to protect you.'

She then invited me to her drumming circle that she holds on the First Monday of every month. The next one being tomorrow night. She said that she doesn't invite many people to it, but that a few of the other healers at the market go and its held in her house which is why she keeps it small.

I'm nervous but I think I might attend.

Long time

Well there has been a big delay in between posts, almost 3 months. But I have to admit that these 3 months were probably the toughest of my life.

On the 15th of April my baby sister passed away from leukemia and the time leading up to and since then has been so hard. It wasn't unexpected but the actual occurance was a shock, we were as prepared as we could be but it was still nothing short of devestating.

This is Kim and I at her early 21st party last december. She died 10 days before her actual 21st birthday.

This is Kim and Dad at our version of Easter Camping. She was too sick to go so we had our own fire in our courtyard. This was 3 days before she died.

13 days after Kim died, my Grandmother passed away. Again this wasn't unexpected just really bad timing. I have a theory that she needed someone to show her how to do it. Also if she'd died 2 weeks before Kim it would have been impossible for us to go to her funeral as we wouldn't have left Kim.


This is Mum and Giama at my wedding in March 2008. Thats the last time I saw her and I prefer to remember her this way.

On the 1 month anniversary since Kim's death we had to put down our cat who had gotten FIP from the cat shelter before we got her. FIP is incurable and its looking like our other cat has it too though is not showing symptoms as yet.


Onyxia before she died.

So in short its been a hellish time. We've had more than our fair share of death in this last 7 weeks and the world seems less bright without them.

Tattoo of Awesomeness

So Kim is terminal. She has between 2 weeks and a couple months left. One of the things she wanted to do was get a tattoo and she and Mel had been discussing it for a while and when they told me I decided I wanted one too. Mel was a bit thingie about me getting one as well, but explained that it was more from a selfish perspective rather than anything against me.

I wanted it because I didn't really know Kim before she got sick and I'm not as close to her as Mel is. I was scared of forgetting her which is completely illogical but it was there and it was a way for me to be close to her, even in 20 years time.

On Saturday we went and got Mel's done, because Kim needed a doctor's cert to get her's done and by the time they'd done Mel's we needed to leave so that Mel could go to a hen's night. Sunday we all went back and Kim and I got ours done.

It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would, its a little red now but all in all it looks great. Kinda weird getting used to the idea of 'me with a tattoo'